I initially had a difficult time choosing a specialty due to developing an allergy to waterless scrub soap. However, I ultimately chose a field where I could listen to my patients' stories and histories. During my training, I fell in love with geriatrics through home-based primary care. While I thought I would become a clinician educator, I discovered my passion for clinical research. I pursued a master's degree in clinical & translational research and have been involved in numerous clinical trials. Despite unsuccessful attempts at a career development award, I am now focusing on other ways to make an impact, such as launching my own podcast and engaging in public speaking, consulting, and policy advocacy.
My former residency program director Colleen Christmas and associate program director Jennifer Hayashi, current geriatric fellowship director Jessica Colburn at Johns Hopkins all showed me how awesome geriatricians could be. My current mentor Jeff Williamson at Wake Forest tells me to do more of what brings me joy and have supported all of my evolving interests since I joined faculty in 2016.
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I have learned to hold space for my patients without taking on their emotional distress. Earlier on in my training I was getting emotionally overwhelmed as I often worried about my patients long after I saw them in clinic or in the hospital. Once I learned to separate my life from my patients’ lives, I became a much more effective physician and listener.
I would tell my fellow women in medicine the same advice I give to my family caregivers of patients living with dementia: you cannot pour from an empty cup. Refill your own cups without guilt as it is the strategy for sustainable impact. As one of my clerkship directors told us in medical school at UNC-Chapel Hill: don’t become a Hershey’s kiss. Medicine can easily make your life one-sided and the rest of your life (family, health, friends, etc.) become the thin little tip at the top of the Hershey’s chocolate kiss.
I had an Ah-Ha moment recently when I was preparing my promotions package for Associate Professor. I was not sure if my social media/Twitter, news interviews would count toward my academic portfolio. I did them because I wanted to, not because they would sound great on my CV. But turns out, they contribute to my “reputation”, a key domain of promotions criteria. It made me feel even braver to launch the podcast as it did not have to compete with other domains of academia: teaching, clinical care, and research.